It’s been quite a long time that I haven’t given any news nor written any article on my blog. I guess the big question is: How am I doing?
So what’s wrong with me? Ok I could say that making the questions and the answers could be - and actually - is awkward, but that’s not the point here.
Hmm so what to start first with?
Do I miss France?
Anyway, I really think I should stop talking shit here…. My laptop is not a shrink head anyway and I don’t need someone like that..
Let’s simply think that everything is great. I’m in exchange in a great city, in a great country. City that I’ll miss a lot…. I have plenty of friends to hang with, to go partying with, to go clubbing with. Friends that I’ll also miss and that I’ll have trouble to see again. Am I even able to keep in touch with all of them?… I like my internship, it’s interesting, related to what I’ve been studying for years now, it’s challenging. Is it really what I want to do? How would I know? Will I be able to work sitting in a cubicle in front of a computer for the next 40 years? It’s been a month and there is already so much routine work…. I miss my friends in France, friends that I haven’t seen for a more than a year now, and I’ve never been so close to see them again. Many of my friends are going to fly abroad to do an exchange before I even get back, I will have more friends to see and much less time to see them…. I miss my family, my parents, my brothers. Each of us is going to live in different cities – cities very far from each other - and will have his own life…. And I’m listening to the song “Disappearing world” right now…. Depressing….
And yet, I’m sure, or least I’ll do my best, to go over all this. I mean I really don’t want to make up all this list and then say: “look how good I am”. All these doubts are in me and I don’t think they’ll go away like that. I don’t have answers to them anyway. But if there is one thing I know it is how important it is to enjoy as much as I can my exchange. Much of it is over. Many people are already gone. Some are leaving soon.. But it’s not over yet. I left France thinking I had done the toughest part: leaving. Now I start realizing how wrong I was and how right my Dad was to tell me that the “most difficult part is to come back”. And yet, I’m looking forward for it. It is something that I have been experiencing before. My closest friends in Brittany, Paris, Lyon have always been there for me and I’ll be always there for them. In every one of these cities - and I know it will be the same with Singapore – the experiences I had bonded me so closely to these people that I don’t want to lose them.
Going in exchange is certainly a great experience and a great opportunity. I guess it makes people change a lot but I guess it is also one of the best way to know what you want, to look around you and be happy with what you already have.
More than ever before I want to enjoy my time here, my friends, my work, etc. More than ever before I know how important it is to make some efforts to keep in touch with the people I like. So make sure that when you leave you know what you are leaving for and also make sure that you know what you’ll go back for.